Hello you.

Hello little lump.
little growth.
little goiter.
little cancer.

Hello you.

Yes, YOU have a name and an identity all to YOURSELF.
Yes, YOU have proven YOUR Independence.
YOU have chosen not to be a part of this big wonderful harmony of my body.
YOU have shown that YOU truly think for YOURSELF.

And now YOU have chosen to rally your friends and rage war.

OK. I SEE YOU!!!
I acknowledge you.

But, I REFUSE to accept you!!

The Wise Ones say "Love your enemy".
"You could possible be my greatest teacher".
"With every challenge comes and opportunity for wisdom and learning."

Well, Fuck the Wise Ones!!!
They can come talk to me when they are staring death in the face,
and their body is self destructing.

Fuck YOU as well body!!
I have treated you kindly.
Feed you the best food,
loved you.
pampered you.
Taken care of you.
And now you have made yourself my enemy.

Fuck you!!!

Fuck you little lump.
little growth.
little goiter.
little cancer.

Fuck you!!!

I will NOT accept you.
I will NOT learn from you.
I will NOT like you.
I will NOT love you.

I am the chief and commander of this body.
I am the captain.
If you have chosen to engage in mutiny,
than you must face the consequences,
and accept your ultimate death!

Because NO DEATH shall live in me!
NO fear.
NO weakness.
No tears.

I am immortal.
I am strong.
I am life.
I am life-giving.
I am creative.
I am beautiful.
I am everlasting.

You are no longer welcome on this ship.
you can pack your belongings, and
leave peacefully in the night...

Or you will be evacuated, cut out,
Forcefully removed.
bombed, poised and killed.

I am Beauty.
I am Harmony.

But am NOT nice.

Fuck you death!
Fuck you!

Goodbye you.

Goodbye little lump.
Little growth.
Little goiter.
Little cancer.

Goodbye you.

After two cups of peppermint tea and a box of ginger chews,
I still feel "Woozy" and "Queasy"
like the Earth is still moving.

I do NOT believe that human beings were meant to
spin in circles at forces greater than gravity high in the air.

We were Meant to stand on the the Ground!!

(And for that matter, all these one-legged yoga poses?...
I am NOT a flamingo)

All mammals (that I am aware of) stand on the ground with two-four legs.
(I realize there may be some flying and swimming exceptions)

But you get my point...

We were meant to WALK the EARTH!!!

The Ground is Good!!!

I do NOT want to fly around like an excited electron about to leave orbit in an atomic reaction.

My mom says "I am heroic"

But does a hero really, vomit after riding the "Teacups" for a second time?
Does a fool really ride anything for a second time?

My belly was in agony all day.
The entire time while we were standing in line waiting for inevitable torture, I was in deep contemplation of my navel.
(literally)

I envied the "cute" girls in bikinis,
NOT because of their beautiful bodies,
but because they were revealing their flat tummies with no shame.

And MY belly felt like I had swallowed a watermelon whole!!!

I KNEW i was NOT designed for the torture of pregnancy or labor, if a little indigestion and slight nausea were enough to make me cry.

It was (in a weird sort of way) a "spiritual experience".
I was in CONSTANT prayer...
"Help me GOD!!"
"Oh, GOD, PLEASE Heal me"
"PLEASE DON'T let me throw up"

But, apparently, God was busy or didn't hear my silent pleas.

God, was in fact, High in the Ethereal Clouds.
A beautiful ray of luminance pierced through the pearly white softness.
I thought it was a "Sign of Hope", but
really it was just a momentary distracting from my pain.

Maybe this is why people enjoy lurching themselves into the "heavens" at "warp speed"?
Where they also experiencing the "Ecstasy of the Divine"?
HMMMMMMMM

Well, they were screaming allot,
Maybe "bliss" is sinuous with "fear"?

"How could this be fun?" I wondered.
"I can't believe that depleting my adrenals and overtaxing my nervous system was pleasurable at one time in my life"
"Have I gotten old?"

NO, I was NO hero.
I did subject myself to physical abuse for the LOVE my most believed cousin.
(He had a blast, by the way)

But I am no hero.
I will never ride in space.
NASA will never call me.
I will never fly a plane.
Be a ship captain.
Rescue anyone from a burning building.

I am no hero!!
I am a fool, who loves a little too much.
Who realized that Love makes us do foolish things and
LOVE is a Greater force than gravity.
And it can at times make you a little "Queasy")